Not so traumatised and looking positive

...Why I love hangoverless weekends now


So, I'm over the car crash now. We're still without car though. Edd's dad is my chauffeur to work at the moment. I feel really bad about it, and keep offering to get the bus, but his parents aren't having any of it. I'd also like to get the bus as it gives me time to listen to my music, which I don't seem to be doing much of these days, but I can't really say that to them. We're waiting to sort out a courtesy car, but apparently the place doesn't have any small cars. I don't know what this means, unless they only have Hummers left. I don't fancy driving a Hummer. Although I won't be driving the courtesy car anyway, as I won't be insured to. Maybe they only have limousines? It would be pretty spectacular to be driven to work in a limousine. I might speak to them about this. So, while Jay (the car, not my choice of name I'll have you know) is being repaired, we're pretty much confined to Gorseinon. Not so much fun. There really isn't much here in this litle Welsh village. Plus all of my friends live in Swansea. I just have Edd. And he's unavailable now that the Playstation network has come back online, and he can play Fifa with his "team" again. So, what is a girl to do with all this time??? Please, ideas would be useful.

Batman has been neutered. I have never seen a cat look so sorry for herself. The night before she went to the vets, we kept her in our room to make sure she didn't eat any food (vet's orders), and she was all snoozey. I was just bumming around on my laptop, learning Swedish, as you do, when I felt a tickle at my foot. I looked up and saw this.....



Isn't that the cutest!? (Please ignore the mess in the background, still waiting for the computer desk to be moved out of the room so we have space for all of our junk. I have a lot of junk) I do love my kitty cat. She is pretty awesome. She didn't even hate me after the vet took away her lady parts. She might hate me when I take her back to get the stitches out and have her vaccinations. But then again, she might be like me and like needles. Probably not though, she hasn't experienced the joy of a tattoo gun.

My first car crash

So today, I crashed Edd's car. Nothing major, it wasn't a huge collision, there were no injuries, but it shook me up pretty badly. I guess I was at fault, but I am generally a careful driver. Neither me nor Edd saw the brake lights of the car in front as it stopped, but apparently it did, and no amount of emergency braking stopped our car. So Jay (the car) has a buckled bumper and a grate fell out of the front. The other car only had a tiny scratch, but the guy was causing a fuss about it. The police took my details, but as we exchanged insurance details, they didn't pursue it. The policeman didn't seem to impressed with the other guy saying there would be loads of damage that we couldn't see because of the bump. I'm a bit worried about what he's going to claim. His wife was nice though. She could see I was shaken up. And Emilia got to press the button to make the blue lights flash on the police car, which calmed her down a bit, as she was a bit shaken up. So I've got sore knees from hitting the steering column when I slammed on the brake. But I've had sweet tea and cake to make me feel better. I'm just thankful it wasn't serious.

Life is made up of photos like this!

Life is going pretty well at the moment. I'm getting more hours at work, and as I've settled in more at Edd's, more stuff has got done. I'm going to start scrapbooking again soon. And I'm feeling crafty. I've made pink heart-shaped cupcakes today. They were rather yummy. I'm feeling rather contented with life right now.

Oh, and it's EUROVISION TONIGHT! One of my favourite television events of the year! SO much joy!



And not forgetting photos like this!

Finding a bit of "me time"

It has become increasingly difficult recently. I've moved in with Edd, and so it's chaotic 24/7. Emilia is getting used to the stability of having a mum, so she can be clingy at times, and only wants to do things with me. I still haven't unpacked all of my things, as there isn't room yet. We're still trying to find Edd a job. Batman has settled in well, although it's hard work stopping the cats eating each others food. And during all this, I am trying to finish knitting the blanket for my niece and learning Swedish (I've been saying this for a while, but I mean it this time!)

Nobody said being an adult would be this stressful! Why didn't anyone warn me?!

My jigsaw family

I am never letting anything break us up.

Edd is so scared of what might happen when Emilia has a meeting with her mum next week. I'm scared too, but I'm not letting on. It kept me awak last night.

I'm distracting myself by planning her birthday party. The main thing is pink, and I'm going to make cup cakes with butterflies on top. She deserves the best and I'm determined to give it to her.

Also, Edd's mum told me that members of their church have said that we look like a family. We are. We may not be the most conventional family, but we work.

Today, I'm feeling angry...

I don't usually get angry about things. I think anger is a waste of energy usually. But today, I am angry. I am angry that the so called child courts in this country seem to think it's a good idea that a child HAS to visit a parent who used to hit them and make them miserable. Apparently, this is in the child's "best interests". OK, I understand that children need both their parents. I get it. I grew up without my dad, and yeah, in some ways it still affects me. But still, I think the whole thing will be more traumatic for the child, who has progressed so much since being with their other parent, who provides a loving and nuturing environment. The child is now outgoing and happy, will laugh and skip and sing and will talk to pretty much anyone. Just like 4 year olds are supposed to do. Understandably, the child misses their parent, but why is it fair that everyone has to go through the stress of watching the child regress back to a state of sadness for nothing?

It just doesn't make sense to me.

Rant over.

Dydd Gwyl Dewi Hapus

Now, I know I'm not Welsh, but I think that a national day that involves daffodils is great! Also, the costumes are just fantastic!



This is Emilia in the traditional St Davids costume. Doesn't she look adorable!!!!!


Happy St David's Day!

So, I'm still doing well with the whole "jigsaw family" thing. I like that saying. We may look different on the outside, but we all fit together. Emilia is happy to be back in Gorseinon, and she has told me many times that she loves me. It is still a little overwhelming, but I do love it. I am stupidly broody at the moment, but we can't afford a child right now, even though I really really want one. I know it's strange as I've only been with Edd for 4 months, but I have never been this happy before, and no relationship has ever felt so right. He is just so amazing to me and just such an amazing person. He makes me cups of tea in the morning without grumbling and complaining, in fact, he offers! I know! How often do you find a man who does that?! He opens doors for me, he always says thank you if I treat us to lunch or I put petrol in his car. And it's always genuine thanks, he says he's really grateful. I know he's really down about not having a job, and it's not like he's being a benefits bum, he's looking for a job, it's just that the market is really competitive. So, in my eyes, I'm the one who is working, so I don't mind helping out. I really do love that monkey eared boy!

In other news, I went shopping yesterday, and bought girly clothes. SHock horror, but it is true. I have decided that as I'm now 25 and have huge amounts of adult responsibility, maybe I should start dressing like an adult... At least, that's the plan, whether I succeed is another story!